Smile...

So Wilbur-ish :D

30 July 2011
Like what Carol always tells me, "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going."
I need to stop getting distracted by nonsense and then procrasinating!

Need to focus and work hard.

I need to pull my grades up high!

Need Need Need.

It's not a want.

They are NEEDS! :o

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That aside..

Second time seeing you since poly.

Awesome, much? :D

Let's hope we still have such chances again. :D

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Went to KAP's railway tracks today!
It's closing after tomorrow. D:

Here's a few photos taken with my cam.
Shall get the photos from Cyn and upload my faves! :D

Cyn & her mama. :D

Cyn & I

Dancerzcyn. :B

Kay, I've gtg.

Gonna have lunch at Watami with da BROTHER & family tomorrow!


♥MandamandamandaG
p.s. can't wait for my holidays!

더 이상 기다리지 않을

nonononononononononono.

The doggie above is so adorable, right?
I know.

Haha.

:B

Wonder what the title of my blogpost means?

Guess.

:x

Supposed to be a sad-ish post.

But the doggie made it better.

:D

I really need to get down to work.

No more wasting of time.

Really.

Mandamandamanda, you just need to persevere awhile more.

It'll be over soon.

And you'll get your well-deserved break.

Can't let your GPA go down!

Now that mummy & daddy are satisfied with it.

(Y)

Ganbatte!

Jiayou!

Fighting!

:D

This will be me, soon enough.

♥MandamandamandaG

Korea

YAY!

OMG YES!

ABM'S OFF TO KOREA FOR OUR STUDY TRIP THIS NOVEMBER!
10-16NOV! :D

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

:D

Finally a school overseas trip!

At least I know that  we won't be disappointed!

Unlike in choir.

All talk, no action.

And nothing comes true 'cause the school doesn't want to support it.

So, YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

:D

♥MandamandamandaG.

Distance. Two Hearts.

You know our story.

♥MandamandamandaG.

Thoughts.

What are friends for?

Most of the time, you'd tell everything to your good, close friends.

But some things.

You can't tell?

Don't know how to tell?

Yea.

I know.

Understandable.

Just don't blame me for doing the same, kay.

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Potatoes.

Seriously.

Potatoes.

After I said you changed until maybe from somewhat knowing you, and that I'm now not so sure whether I still know you?

You asked which you is better. Now or last time?
How I know sia.

Funny guy.

I'll just keep remaining on my stand that you're similar yet different from the guy I used to know. :o

So when a guy texts you about seeing your sis, what does that mean?

Is it supposed to even mean anything?'

Sure, I wanna keep things quiet.

'cause we're just chatting, that's all.

Don't want the whole thing to be blown out of proportion.

Screwing everything up and leaving me alone again. :/

It's really nice just to have someone to talk to about nothing in particular.

After such a long time. :o

So yeap.

Not thinking too much.

Just wondering.

It's different. :x

♥MandamandamandaG.

Thinking too much.

Thinking. Too much.

So it appears that I've been thinking too much again.

As usual.

As always.

When it comes to those few guys.

I'd realised that there are only a few particular guys that y'know really mean something.

No matter how long it has been. :o

Same for many people I guess? :X

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Well, like I said before..

It has been two years since we talked just to chat and stuff.

So I guess..

I'm just really gonna take it as it is.

Not think too much.

(From now on.)
'cause what are the chances man?
Zero to none.

That's what. :X

Are my expectations too high?

Or is it that 'cause I've been through the pain and all, so I'm not willing to open up to new people anymore?

I'm just not interested.

I don't know why.

I just don't feel interested. :o

If it's people I was close to before, I don't mind y'know.

And I don't know why too.

So weird.

But I guess it's the familiarity factor that affects it all bah.

Don't wanna start all over again. :x

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Kay,

I should totally stop playing random games on FB and do my work.

Feel so slack. :/

Like I'm in holiday mood already,

Gosh.

Can die.

OMGOMGOMGOGMOMGOMG. :X

Please let me see you in school! :x

Not fair that you saw me and I didn't see you!

(except on the bus. but that's different.) 

♥MandamandamandaG.

Heartbreakers.

Heartbreakers.

My blog posts these few days are gonna be about him.

'cause this is my only outlet to rant and think out loud. :x

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How it is amusing?

Maybe it's just random teasing to you.

But..

It's kinda strange.

It's been two years now since we first talked.

And now...

We've only been talking for like one month and six days. :x

(Not including the time when we talked before.)

So when you say things like that...

It's really "wrong"?
Do you still remember the reason we stopped talking?

And drifted apart?

At least I think I remembered the right one.

Or at least the gist of it. :x

I'd admit.

Talking to you again is really...something I thought would never have happened again.

Surprise, surprise.

But.

I have to say..

No, I don't think I have any feelings for you anymore.

I still remember our really sad story.

How we never liked each other at the same time.

I liked you first.

But you liked her then.

And when I didn't like you.

You liked me.

Talk about missing the boat.

:/

Perhaps I shouldn't base things on memories and what we had before.

Maybe you don't know this...

But..

What we had was something unlike any other.

Cliché maybe, but definitely true.

And I will never forget it. :x

And now when we text, it's like one message per day or something along that lines.

I mean, I understand that you're busy and all that.

Graduating year, many projects, assignments etc.

Understanding doesn't mean I have to like it right?
Our conversations are like...

o . 0

Seriously.

It's abit sad that we can't really share what's happening in our lives 'cause by the time you reply..

It's already over.

And it's not like you tell me stuff going on in your life.

I only know 'cause of people tagging you in fb. :/

Not that I'm gonna say anything, 'cause you'll sure say I stalked you.

hahah.

I guess I should just let nature take its own course.

Kay, I've gotta go sleep.

9am class tmr.

Good night. :)

♥ MandamandamandaG.

Running in circles

Running in circles, baby~

YES! I'm finally done with my SOCPSY Essay! :D
Just submitted it on SafeAssign.

Hate that thing, seriously.

Always feel afraid to click the "Submit" button.

Okay, I know I should totally go to sleep seeing as it's already 3.11am as I type this post out. :O

But there's something on my mind that I just get rid of.

So it's to the blog I go. :X

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Why.

Why do you say the things you do?

Why do you say that?

Why did you say that?

Why. Why. Why.

And it's like you're an older guy.

Which makes it all the more confusing. :/

Those memories are coming back again.

No, it's not about yo.

It's about him.

You're so different now.

Still the same old cute guy.

(Perhaps now got more muscles bah. HAHA.)

You still talk the same way.

At least via text messages.

A little different.

But still similar.

Still familiar.

Some things you say are really...

Misleading.

They give the wrong impression?

'cause you do remember that we haven't talked in years, right?

So it's kinda strange.

And I'm kinda wondering how come you haven't been snatched by any girl yet. :O

'cause that's what I expected. :X

I know I shouldn't think so much.

But.

You didn't add a "Just kidding" behind what you said.

Which you normally would do if you were teasing me.

So..

I don't really know?

I don't know what you're thinking.

Really..

><

Is it possible to fall in like with the same guy twice?

I really wonder.

♥ MandamandamandaG.

Roller-coaster Ride~

14th July 2011

 Life's been like a roller-coaster ride.

Now that it's after 13th July, I feel like I can take a little time to breathe a little.

Sure, I still have loads of work to do.

But lesser stuff due in one day or going on on the same day.

I had double consult yesterday.

One for WRICOM and one for SOCPSYCH.

Both for essays.

I couldn't remember what Ms Lorraine said after lunch when I tried to edit my outline.

(My consult with her was at  11plus and by the time I got down to work, it was already 1plus. :o)
Nearly died trying to edit it.
Jon was trying to help me 'cause we went for the same session.
But it was quite fail.
I totally just rushed it out during the night.
Worse part was that I had Photog till 8pm and only got home at 9plus.

Though surprisingly, for today's MUSPER essay consult (it's combined with WRICOM essay).

Dr. Sam totally approved of my outline.

I was damn worried before that he would cancel everything out. :O
Afterall, I was working on instinct.

'Cause I wasn't really getting any more help from Ms Lorraine (meaning she didn't reply my email. :/)

Oh wells, Dr. Sam gave me a star and two smileys!

Way cool okay!

I know I sound like a small kid..

But getting approval in poly is seriously not easy.

Plus who doesn't like knowing that they are doing something right and approved of? :X

SOCPSYCH essay's due on Monday (18th July), need to chiong it out.

Hope that I'll score well for it.

I shall try to do well for all essays. :X

ARTHIST essay set the ball rolling with really good grades I believe. :D
JIAYOUS ME! hehe. :B

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Been feeling so tired lately.

Bet everyone's feeling that way.

Half the time I feel drained.

And it's like I have absolutely no life!

It's like I sacrifice so many things just so that I have more time to do my work. :O

Though, no I'm not some hardcore mugger.

Just some girl trying to do well in her poly course. :X

You should seriously see the results some people in my class are getting.

It's like As all the way.

Mostly that egoistic guy and his clique. :/

Life's so unfair.

Hais.

Oh wells.

Just need to keep persevering.

Soon my hols will come and I can get a good rest!
Overseas trip! I can't wait!
I wanna get out of SG!

Really pray hard that we're going to Seoul, Korea! :X

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Everyone has moments where they feel insecured.

That feeling never really disappears.

And it will always comes back again and again.

I don't know why we always have weird shit between us.

I mean..

On one hand, you keep saying I'm damn important to you and everything.

But it's not like we're like even talking now.

Yeayeayea.

I'm sure you're feeling really insecured and unsure of how to deal with me.

Like what's the point of saying we're friends, good friends at that when you guys just think I'm so problematic. So hard to deal with and what not.

It just doesn't make sense.

So, let me ask you.

Do you really know me?

What I like, what I really think, how I really feel?

Yáll always think I'm so hard to talk to.

Oh really.

Or maybe you just don't wanna try.

Too lazy.

Can't be bothered.

Nono.

Don't go blaming me.

I don't have anything to say.

Nothing important to share.

It's always the same old same old for me.

So don't go blaming me for not talking or saying anything.

'Cause afterall, you'd also ignore me after awhile.

No replies or anything.

I've always found it weird how our conversations of sorts can just hang off like that.

There's no "I gtg le! ttyl!" etc.

It's just silence, ignoring and all that.

Whatever you felt before, I would definitely have felt the same way before.

So please stop thinking that only you would have felt that way.

'cause that's not the case.

Do you actually realise that you don't really listen to what I say?
There's no respect there.

Do you even respect me as a friend?

Treat me as someone of at least some amount of importance?

Don't say "yes, of course" so quickly.

Think first.

'Cause saying is one thing and doing is another.

The way you make me feel is just like I'm just there to be your listening ear and all that.

It's not that I'm complaining.

But it's like..

You don't ever listen to me.

At least don't listen to me when I'm talking.

Halfway through, you'll say something that has to do with yourself and I'd just have to shut up.

Notice how I don't continue what I was saying?
Or maybe you don't notice as much as you thought you did.

♥ MandamandamandaG.

Moving...

So it's now back to Blogger for me!
Onsugar screwed up on me and I was pissed.
So I decided to move back to Blogger.
Plus with all the new stuff in Blogger such as the template thingy, it's so easy now to create your own design of your blog. :B

Kay, just a short post.
I need to rant.
Wanted to. But spent too much time editing the template.
So yeap.
Time to chiong my work for tomorrow!
I mean, today! :B


♥ MandamandamandaG.