Roller-coaster Ride~

14th July 2011

 Life's been like a roller-coaster ride.

Now that it's after 13th July, I feel like I can take a little time to breathe a little.

Sure, I still have loads of work to do.

But lesser stuff due in one day or going on on the same day.

I had double consult yesterday.

One for WRICOM and one for SOCPSYCH.

Both for essays.

I couldn't remember what Ms Lorraine said after lunch when I tried to edit my outline.

(My consult with her was at  11plus and by the time I got down to work, it was already 1plus. :o)
Nearly died trying to edit it.
Jon was trying to help me 'cause we went for the same session.
But it was quite fail.
I totally just rushed it out during the night.
Worse part was that I had Photog till 8pm and only got home at 9plus.

Though surprisingly, for today's MUSPER essay consult (it's combined with WRICOM essay).

Dr. Sam totally approved of my outline.

I was damn worried before that he would cancel everything out. :O
Afterall, I was working on instinct.

'Cause I wasn't really getting any more help from Ms Lorraine (meaning she didn't reply my email. :/)

Oh wells, Dr. Sam gave me a star and two smileys!

Way cool okay!

I know I sound like a small kid..

But getting approval in poly is seriously not easy.

Plus who doesn't like knowing that they are doing something right and approved of? :X

SOCPSYCH essay's due on Monday (18th July), need to chiong it out.

Hope that I'll score well for it.

I shall try to do well for all essays. :X

ARTHIST essay set the ball rolling with really good grades I believe. :D
JIAYOUS ME! hehe. :B

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Been feeling so tired lately.

Bet everyone's feeling that way.

Half the time I feel drained.

And it's like I have absolutely no life!

It's like I sacrifice so many things just so that I have more time to do my work. :O

Though, no I'm not some hardcore mugger.

Just some girl trying to do well in her poly course. :X

You should seriously see the results some people in my class are getting.

It's like As all the way.

Mostly that egoistic guy and his clique. :/

Life's so unfair.

Hais.

Oh wells.

Just need to keep persevering.

Soon my hols will come and I can get a good rest!
Overseas trip! I can't wait!
I wanna get out of SG!

Really pray hard that we're going to Seoul, Korea! :X

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Everyone has moments where they feel insecured.

That feeling never really disappears.

And it will always comes back again and again.

I don't know why we always have weird shit between us.

I mean..

On one hand, you keep saying I'm damn important to you and everything.

But it's not like we're like even talking now.

Yeayeayea.

I'm sure you're feeling really insecured and unsure of how to deal with me.

Like what's the point of saying we're friends, good friends at that when you guys just think I'm so problematic. So hard to deal with and what not.

It just doesn't make sense.

So, let me ask you.

Do you really know me?

What I like, what I really think, how I really feel?

Yáll always think I'm so hard to talk to.

Oh really.

Or maybe you just don't wanna try.

Too lazy.

Can't be bothered.

Nono.

Don't go blaming me.

I don't have anything to say.

Nothing important to share.

It's always the same old same old for me.

So don't go blaming me for not talking or saying anything.

'Cause afterall, you'd also ignore me after awhile.

No replies or anything.

I've always found it weird how our conversations of sorts can just hang off like that.

There's no "I gtg le! ttyl!" etc.

It's just silence, ignoring and all that.

Whatever you felt before, I would definitely have felt the same way before.

So please stop thinking that only you would have felt that way.

'cause that's not the case.

Do you actually realise that you don't really listen to what I say?
There's no respect there.

Do you even respect me as a friend?

Treat me as someone of at least some amount of importance?

Don't say "yes, of course" so quickly.

Think first.

'Cause saying is one thing and doing is another.

The way you make me feel is just like I'm just there to be your listening ear and all that.

It's not that I'm complaining.

But it's like..

You don't ever listen to me.

At least don't listen to me when I'm talking.

Halfway through, you'll say something that has to do with yourself and I'd just have to shut up.

Notice how I don't continue what I was saying?
Or maybe you don't notice as much as you thought you did.

♥ MandamandamandaG.